It’s been more than six months since my unofficial hiatus.
I have dropped in here and there but now, I am TRYING to recommit to you.
I still have no idea what to bring out as a content but hey! I’m trying.
So here’s my new life update:
This season taught me that I have a heavenly Father who accepts me and sees me and has forgiven all of my sins – my past, present and future. I am so precious to Him that He purchased me with the blood of His one and only son Jesus Christ.
No longer am I living in guilt and shame. Now, I can call onto my safe place for help, prayer and guidance. I can expose these sins into the light and battle with it victoriously.
I have learned that the church is a place to grow and thrive, not a place to hide from or runaway from when things get tough, when someone hurts you, when someone abandons you.
God is making me whole again. As I soak in Him EVERY SINGLE DAY. EVERY HOUR AND EVERY MINUTE of my life. I feel Him seeping into every creases of me. Removing the bitter roots that the world – because of sin – has grown in me.
He is uprooting everything that is not of Him and in Him. And masakit. It is hard to be selfless. It is hard to die to yourself. But when I look at the cross and look up at the God Man who loves me perfectly, I am humbled at my humanity that even if I am a piece of dirty rag, God took me and made me beautiful.
In this last 20 weeks, my heart and my mind connected to feel the loving presence of my God the Father. There is no one like Him. Noone who can love me more than Him.
“In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.”
1 John 4:9-10
I am Fatima Faye Ildefonso.
I am a Child of God.